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Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Hit Me With Your Best Shot – in Which the Refurbished ATR Makes a Personal Discovery

It was supposed to break me. It was supposed to frustrate, humiliate, and degrade me into quitting, or at least doing something foolish that they could use against me.
I dared to speak out. I dared to document, challenge, and call BULLSHIT when I saw it. I filed lawsuits (and recently won a six figure settlement). I named names and showed proof. I made phone calls and forwarded documents. And in the end, I was returned to the ATR pool (with no actual documentation that I am an ATR, but that’s another blog for another day).
They thought that playing ATR Roulette would frustrate me. It sounds frustrating, doesn’t it? A new building, new staff, new work hours, new students, new grade levels, new parking situations and new commutes every few weeks, well, that has to be enough to break a person. Especially when you get to a place and are assumed to be incompetent even though you have nineteen years in and a clean file. You are asked if you have ever taken attendance. You are asked if you have ever been in a fire drill. You are told that the Smart Board is “only for teachers” and that “subs always mess it up”. You relinquish your name and become “The ATR” or “The Sub”. Kids see you and gleefully say, “Oh, look, a SUB!” The teachers you are helping don’t ask your name or even bother to glance at you, simply telling the class, “That’s the sub who will be here while I’m gone” as they run out the classroom door. Teachers with one year in are giving YOU directions and telling YOU how to teach a reading lesson (even though you are a Literacy Specialist with a Master’s in Literacy and fifteen years in the job). And the clincher – after a career spent almost exclusively with grades seven and eight, you are sent to teach everything but those grades – pre-K one day, fourth grade another, and on and on.
But let me tell you, DOE. Your plan backfired. Spectacularly. Not only have I not been broken, but I have become a stronger, better teacher and stronger better person for your efforts. I am a better teacher than I have EVER been – and it’s all thanks to you and your ATR pool.
You thought the constant changing of schools would be frustrating. Let me tell you, while there are a few oddball commutes here and there, I have found parts of my district that I never would have found had it not been for the monthly spin of the ATR Roulette Wheel. I have friends and colleagues in almost every school in my district. I know which schools are wonderful places to be, and where to avoid at all costs. I have a keen sense of what works in a school, and can see how vile administration can wreck a place by creating an atmosphere of intimidation. I’ve been able to support colleagues who have been beaten down and targeted, and provide welcome assistance when I can. I’ve truly learned how to HELP, and do it willingly and joyfully. And I can do this BECAUSE, at some point, I move on, thanks to the system YOU have designed.
I’ve developed the best poker face ANYWHERE. When I am in a train wreck of a school, with a nasty, back-stabbing staff and insane administration, I can look on with bemused detachment. I can take solace in the fact that in a few weeks I move on, and take pity on those who have to stay. I keep my game face on, and count the days until I leave the train wreck behind. I can even do this when the DOE sends supervisors and other officials to “coach” us. You’ll never see me sweat or smirk, but what I’m thinking is another story. But you’ll never know.
Thanks to the ATR pool, I’ve been moved out of my comfort zone – and discovered that I can do ANYTHING. For years, I taught in middle school. Mostly grades seven and eight. I never thought about teaching any other grade, especially the “Littles”. As an ATR, you teach whatever grade you are given. I bet, DOE, that you thought that would drive me nuts. Well, let me tell you – I have been able to see great teachers in action at every level and have learned much from them. As a result, I can walk into ANY classroom – from Pre-K to tenth grade – and teach something. On the spot. Immediately. And I can be successful doing it. I have become an absolutely FEARLESS teacher. And I owe it all to you.
I have become the BEST classroom manager I have ever been. Nothing like being “the Sub” to make classroom management a huge log roll. But, I’ve learned to walk in my own experience and authority, keeping my “teacher” presence and confidence in place. I can settle a Kindergarten class I have never seen before in less than a minute. I can have a sixth grade class ready to work in less than two – even though I have never seen them before. I can build a relationship with a group of students in a day or two and keep it going until I move on.
I have become mentally agile and unbelievably resourceful. There’s nothing like having a class of twenty five first graders looking at you when you discover that nothing has been left for you for the day. But thanks to you, I can “read” a classroom, find what I need, and make the day productive by simply making inferences from what IS left. Being an obsessive “planner”, I have discovered that I am, in fact, capable of thinking on my feet. Thank you for that.
Most of all, I have learned to appreciate my own skills and to stand up for myself. I now insist that colleagues address me by name. I call out secretaries, school aides, and paras when they speak to me like I am an idiot, or when they speak about me to each other as if I am not there. I’ve learned to demand professional treatment and respect. I’ve stood up for myself when fellow teachers have treated me as a subordinate, or worse. I don’t let them get away with it anymore. I’ve learned when to stand up and call bullshit, and do it politely, but without fear. I have become a force to be reckoned with.
So, DOE, thank you for this. Thank you for placing me in this situation where I have become the strongest, most effective, most resourceful teacher I have EVER been. I know this wasn’t your plan. But that’s ok – because of this I have learned that I am made of strong stuff. That I am a survivor and that I am amazingly competent and capable. Hit me with your best shot, DOE.
I’ll hit it right back.

13 comments:

  1. AWESOME! This was such an outstanding piece to read in this day and age where the DOE is trying to crush any and all veteran teachers. Way to go!

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  2. Well said.... I wish and only hope, that the people who find themselves in the same position as you, realize what they are capable of. Teachers are some of the best and smartest multitaskers out there... This is the only mentality you should have in order to survive and thrive!

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  3. Well said.... I wish and only hope, that the people who find themselves in the same position as you, realize what they are capable of. Teachers are some of the best and smartest multitaskers out there... This is the only mentality you should have in order to survive and thrive!

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  4. Excellent...many teachers who are not ATRs need to read this.

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  5. Now that was AWESOME.......

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  6. What a great post ATR! I retired in 2014 and tried every day to convince my young colleagues that we are all a moment away from ATR status but they didn't get it. Like you this high school teacher still rocked my classes in my 28th year. My favorite was the last 8th period class that I was assigned. The AP filled it with over half special ed kids and every troublemaker in the school and I had 9th 10th 11th and 12th graders in the same room. Our veteran programmer wanted to transfer some out when she saw the cast of characters assigned to me but I told her not to. Bring them on I said and when the AP observed me he couldn't beleve how well behaved they were! It's a beautiful thing to bring all your well honed teaching skills to the fore and yes, as you say you become powerful and fearless!!! So happy to read this tale of victory!

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  7. Excellent post

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  8. Great post. Stay strong

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  9. Exactly!! It's through adversity we become strong! These are my sentiments through and through.

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  10. I feel the same way! Sadly, my ATR supervisor, Justin "the axe man" Starke, feels differently......he's the APO from a failed Queens HS that was closed down. The man supervised purchase orders!

    Why are we allowing failed administrators, with limited successful teaching experience, assess itinerant teachers with no "ownership" of the class they met hours before?

    Justin Starke, I ask for the 10th time this year, will you model a developed lesson for me?

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  11. I had Stark two years ago.....what a tool.

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  12. Kudos to you for your strength, courage and endurance. Your affirmation of being able to affirm positivity and negate negativity is not only self affirming, you did not let anyone break your spirit. Please know this is what evil people will do...If there is anything consolation, not only am I a fellow fighter, I won a case Pro Se vs. the Dept. of Education back in the day. The NYC Corporation counsel begged me to settle. I continued working and retired in 2013. I saw the ATR nonsense coming down the pipeline, so I had the time and the age and said goodbye. Not only am I enjoying my retirement, I beat them at their own game. I am still a fighter in mind, body and spirit.
    I wish you well, the sun does not shine every day, but you must remain inspired motivated and above all as First Lady Mrs. Michelle Obama says "when they stoop low, you go high" continue to reach for the stars, joy cometh in the morning, a better day is coming, each new day is presents a realm of possibilities, you have got what it takes, make it happen. May the ancestors continue to find you in their favor.

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